I keep having these moments of clarity.  It’s refreshing… it feels like the roof was taken off my house and I can finally breathe in some fresh air, see the clouds and stars and use my imagination again.Thats all, Just saying…lovesxoxo

For example: we would all agree to wear a red-shirt, blue jeans and black shoes, because that’s something we all had in our closet. Friday would come and not one bitch would get it right. One bitch would wear a hot pink t-shirt with blue jeans and white shoes. Another ho would wear a red t-shirt with a giant Tasmanian Devil on the front. The rest of us would claim we forgot and wear something completely different. This would cause one dumb ho to ask the important question, “How can we be down forever if we can’t even do this one little thing together? The school needs to know how tight we are.” Then we would all hug and promise to try harder next week. But nobody would. Junior high was so bizarre.”

I stole this from one of my favorite gossip sites Dlisted.com    He just puts it soo perfectly!!

Anyways here was my attempt to macth with My best friend in middle school. We pulled off the whole cute sweater and jeans look. We win! lol   gotta love 1991

We look hard as hell! lol

loves

xoxox

Who’s with me???

Really though, I should learn how to just relax and chill right?

I went to get a manicure today, and the manicurist told me that I am very tense and need to relax. wow! even she knows. Well, I was only there to pass some time because I was getting stir crazy in my house. But how do you relax in this City??? The second you deceide to stay in and do nothing, is the day all the fun happens!!!

Its just like in Middle School and High School when my twin sister Jaime would go to school and I would decide to play sick and stay home, that all the fun would happen! once the biggest fight of the year took place and I missed it. once someone lit the quad tree on fire and I missed it! I mean the stories could go on and on. I was always like,”damnit!!! why didn’t I just get up and go today!!

anyway, I’m a little bored and since I don’t know the difference between bored and depressed ….whatever

goodnight people

xoxo

So…it’s been recently pointed out to me that I guess I “should” have a boyfriend or husband now.  My answer to that is, “why should I ? I’m good on my own. I can take care of myself, I don’t need the complications of a relationship right now in my life.” Well, despite all my efforts to disregard these observations of my love life, or lack there of, I am starting to think that maybe I should.

Here is my question, How do I go about this.  I mean, dating these days does not seem as easy as it did a few years ago. I can remember a time when all of my friends had boyfriends, including me. now, it seems like there is an increasingly large amount of very attractive single women walking around this city, wondering like me, how do you get a boyfriend and keep one.

You may be thinking to yourself right now, “thats a ridiculous claim. there are tons of women I know that are  in some sort of commited relationship or married” right. well think again buddy. you know, maybe its this city, (I’m talking Los Angeles). Maybe its just here, but lately, I’ve been wondering if  this is some sort of epidemic thats sweeping the country? Maybe, if you hadn’t held on to your boyfriend or  that you met lets say 4 years ago,it may be to late! Nobody is commiting these days. and what if we missed our chance!… oh no, my left ring finger will never have a pretty diamond on it to show off to my friends and family, and I will never get the chance to wear that beautiful white gown that i’ve been dreaming of since the first time I put that white linen on my head and pretended to be married and that man of my dreams really doesnt exist at all!! YIKES STRIPES!!!!!

Ok, sorry, i freaked out there for a second. But hey, you gotta wonder right?

and p.s. this isn’t a cry for help in the dating department…but if you know anybody…just kidding

I couldn’t be motivated to do anything productive today. Not that I slept the whole time, I was awake for the better part of the day. It was kinda fun. I had a very jam packed and intoxicated weekend, so I feel that I deserved this right? Right.

I had a conversation with someone this weekend, discussing the difference between “Lazy, and Slow” It is my opinion that it is far better to be a Slow person than a Lazy one. Lazy people aren’t motivated to do anything and are quite content with never moving on from their current station in life. Slow people just lack the energy. I don’t know why I’m telling you this. It’s just that I have been seeing things alot differently lately.

However, staying in bed all day did have me thinking back to a time when laying in bed all day with a boyfriend was all the motivation I needed to keep me from being lazy (if you catch my drift). I miss those days, the good old days in my case.

Basically, my point to ponder today. Have I become “Lazy”, in my never-ending quest for a Love, or am I just a little “slow” these days?

we shall see…

loves

xoxo

Well not at this moment. But soon!!!!

Loves xoxo

R.L.